938. Occurrence given to Raymond Aguilera on 13 August 1996 at 7:54 AM.
Since I got back from my camping trip, I am noticing something happening to me, even now - as I am speaking into this tape recorder. The Lord is changing something in my spirit. It's kind of scary. I don't understand, but I am beginning to see and understand some things that I never understood before. I believe it had to do with this last camping trip. Something is changing me and I don't really know what it is about? I woke up this morning and my prayer language began to sing, and sing and sing, to the Lord - and it would not stop. But it is more than just singing, He is giving me Bible Scripture verses. He gave me one on the trip; and He gave some other verses last night at the Portuguese Bible Study. He is impressing on my spirit, without saying any Words - that they are important; but only to study them if you have read the Bible from the beginning to the end, because they will have more of an impact.
The verses were:
Here the Key Word was PSALMS. (From NIV Bible)
Luke 24:44 He said to them, "This is what I told you while I was still with you: Everything must be fulfilled that is written about me in the Law of Moses, the Prophets and the PSALMS."
Later this week, I was reminded that the Lord's last Words, in Matt 27:46 and Mark 15:34, were from the PSALMS: Psalm 22:1
Psa 22:1 My God, my God, why have you forsaken me? Why are you so far from saving me, so far from the words of my groaning?
On my camping trip, I read all the Gospels; and now the Lord is placing it on my spirit to read the Book of Psalms. I don't know why, but I cannot seem to stop. Then He placed on me the Scriptures that He gave during the Bible Study last night.
The Key Word here was TRUTH. (From the NIV Bible)
John 8:31 To the Jews who had believed him, Jesus said, "If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples.
John 8:32 Then you will know the TRUTH, and the TRUTH will set you free."
John 14:17 THE SPIRIT OF TRUTH. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be in you.
John 15:26 "When the Counselor comes, whom I will send to you from the Father, the SPIRIT OF TRUTH who goes out from the Father, he will testify about me.
John 16:13 But when he, the SPIRIT OF TRUTH, comes, he will guide you into all TRUTH. He will not speak on his own; he will speak only what he hears, and he will tell you what is yet to come.
1 John 4:6 We are from God, and whoever knows God listens to us; but whoever is not from God does not listen to us. This is how we recognize the SPIRIT OF TRUTH and the spirit of falsehood.
I don't have a clear picture yet of the camping trip, but on the way to the Bible Study the Lord revealed to me why He wanted me to urinate at the campsites.
The Lord said,"You are My Witness, by urinating on the ground - that the west coast of the United States is dirty and an abomination."
Several things came up in my mind.
1. I saw the smoke in the sky from a forest fire as I was driving home from Hells Canyon. Why - then when I got home, were there so many fires started by hundreds of lighting bolts in Fossil City and in the surrounding area, and now in California? I heard some of this on television today as I was typing this - that this is one of the worse fire seasons in nine years, and they even called the United States Army to help. Is this another coincidence?
2. Why were these beautiful places that were non-populated so dirty?
3. Why reveal parts of it to me when I got back, and not when I was there?
4. What is going on in my spirit that is so... challenging?
5. My hands are really getting worse and worse. I called a doctor, a hand specialist, today and the doctor wants $150 just to look at my hands. I have no insurance or money. The money I did have, I spent for the trip. Why didn't the Lord fix my hands?
6. And this morning..., and this is what is confusing to me in the flesh, the way the Lord operates - I sense He was watching me to see what I was going to do and I really don't know what to do...
Later that day, the Lord told me about the serpent (devil) in the Book of Genesis, and said,"I am going to crush the devil's head, like the camper that killed the rattlesnake (moving around the rocks) on your camping trip - did."
Note: The Lord instructed me to add (moving around the rocks) just before I sent it out to the people on the e-mail list.
So, little by little, the Lord is showing me what some of the things that I saw and experienced meant - from the camping trip, but days later.
I received an e-mail from someone on the e-mail list asking me to reveal some of the personal things that the Lord had showed or said. I am at a lost at how to do this.
So I asked the Lord for an answer, and this is what He said, "Can you explain how a rainbow smells? Can you explain how a rainbow feels when you touch it? Can you explain how to hear a rainbow? If you can explain these to your friends; then you can explain what happened on the camping trip, for the ways of God are not the ways of man. How many times do I have to say this? Not all things are for all, for some things are only for you and your spirit."
At this point in time, I sense myself walking toward the Light of Jesus Christ, but stopped, and not being able to walk any farther toward this Light. And what I sense is the Lord watching to see if I would crawl toward the Light. It is hard to explain this because... it's like He is looking to see how far I will go to serve Him... or how far I would carry my cross? And the Scriptures that came to my mind as I spoke this into the tape recorder were:
Mat 10:39 Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.
It's more than faith, maybe there is more to the Book of James than I really realized. Especially in this country... we have had it to easy. We get so rapped up into the blessing - trap. That we don't read about the suffering that the disciples, and those who were martyred that followed Christ, went through. We read it, but we don't digest it; we never place ourselves, really, in their place. It really doesn't have any impact or reality in our spirits.
Like I said, it's a little frightening. It feels like the Lord is going to make me a target - for the Satanists, for the people of Body of Christ that have Him in a box, for the unbelievers. I feel very uncomfortable about being there, but I don't know if I can do anything about it - because I am seeking the Lord and He is moving me in that direction. Something is really happening, praise the Lord, but pray for me (big time!) (over)