606. Occurrence given to Raymond Aguilera on 15 October 1994 at 10:30 PM
I have been in heavy warfare since 10:30 PM. and it is really intense. The enemy has been hit me hard for so long that I am in fetal position and praying and praying. I can actually feel spiritual pain in the spirit has the attacks keep coming wave, after wave, after wave. At one point I found my self slapping myself in the face. I am have no idea how it happen, but I keep sensing something telling me to curse God.
I kept saying, "I praise you Lord Jehovah, Jesus Christ, and Holy Spirit. I praise you Lord, Jehovah, Jesus Christ, and Holy Spirit."
The next thing I knew my hand slapped my face three times as I praised the Lord over and over.
After each hit I heard, "This is for Jehovah; this is for Jesus Christ; this is for the Holy Spirit."
I just got the tar beat out of me, but all I said to myself, "Stand on the Rock! Stand on the Rock! This will pass! This will pass!"
It went on for hours. I kept praying and praying for the Lord to lift this off of me, but the attacks just kept coming wave after wave as I laid in the fetal position trying to protect myself.
I finally reached the point I decided to give up writing the Prophecies and stop all of it. For I couldn't take anymore. I was finally broken in the spirit and the attacks just kept coming one after another. And I kept praying and praying everything from the Lord's prayer, to tongues, to whatever came into my mind. And they just kept hitting me and hitting me.
At 1:30 AM, I guess the Lord finally heard my prayers. For all of a sudden my warfare tongue started and I went into the offensive. It feels like the attacks have lifted, but I can still sense the enemy here. It is about 2 AM. now and I don't know why the Lord let it last so long. As the warfare tongue started my hand went into the air with my legs stretched out as I laid on top of my bed. The sounds that came out of my month were fast and hard has my body reacted to the Force of the warfare. I could sense the Power through the prayer language and I wanted to start recording at that time, but the Power of the prayer language was so strong that I couldn't stop to turn on the tape recorder.
At the present time I am beat down to nothing. I guess there's no sleep tonight. I don't understand!!! The Lord says, He Loves and cares for me. Why did I get the tar beat out of me tonight. I am so tired of all this stuff. I really am. I don't think I can take much more. I just don't think I can. I really need a break. I sure don't see one coming though. All I see in my life is warfare, warfare, and more Prophecies and more warfare.
I can't seem to fight this loneliness. It gets so bad and strong at times I feel like screaming! When you fight in the spirit at times afterwards you feel so alone. It feels like the Lord just took a vacation and you're there by yourself. I know that isn't so, but you feel that way. You pray and you pray and you get the tar beat out of you. I am just so tired of all of this. I am so tired.
All I wanted was my special friend and now I find myself way out here in the middle of spiritual fights with my guts knock out in the spirit. I am financially broke, physically, and spiritually exhausted, and I see no end in sight. Well, I guess that all! I just don't know what to do. I don't know what the Lord is trying to teach me or what!!!!! I just don't know! I am just tired. (over)